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Originally Posted by Sarahpro
Well I got stuck in some kundalini fear 3 MONTHS ago now, slowly dissociated and before I knew it my radiant heart was painfully empty.
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A bit late to the chat.
I will try to come from my, rather weird, perspective.
That sentence that I chose for the initial query, is the key. Some opening/cleansing/transformation event that released energy. The energy that made-up the inner "charge" (energy level) was big and/or important, so releasing it left an empty hole.
Now, without new experiences, new energy reloads, new emotions, alternative lifestyles, alternative experiences, there is still a hole.
In my universe, whatever you do, in terms of trying to comprehend, repair, fill that HOLE in its ORIGINAL CONTEXT, will fail.
Options are:
- as some contributors proposed - switch off and stop obsessing
- seek new experiences, completely unrelated, that will fill a void-of-old-stuff with unconnected NEW stuff;
- chill out and seek anything else.
REMEMBER: if you keep obsessing about the empty hole of old/bad stuff, it will be refilled. If not by the same old/bad stuff, then by your worries about... old/bad stuff.
Avid a self-destructing mental loop.
It was bad.
It filled me.
It made me different/behave differently.
It is gone.
Where did it go.
Why did it go.
Why am I empty.
What can fill it... oh sh** I just did.
I write this from having dozens of such holes - not within the standard kundalini methodology, but having spent 18 months ripping aura and aeatheric energy from myself. Empty is inadequate a word. Black hole is closer, but still... too weak as a description of the inner vacuum...
Look at your emptiness as an energy imbalance, that:
- initially seeks to be REFILLED;
- will slowly accept other energy;
- in the end will become a place of NEW (positive?) experiences that will power your ascensions (or at least, happiness).
best of luck.