What should I do?

[alpha2theta]

Hi,
I understand your frustration. Perhaps you are being too restrictive with your definition of paranormal. I'm personally having a hard time finding my way back to practices I seem to have abandoned some time ago. Not sure what that's all about but my desire and intent to return are bolstered by the many extraordinary experiences I've had.
I strongly agree that no drugs are required. The reason I say restrictive in your definition is because often times we fail to recognize the seemingly insignificant "paranormal" occurrences in our everyday lives.
If you don't have a favorite working modality or some type of structure you can rely on, I urge you to start exploring some of those available. It's easier to communicate with yourself if you develop shortcuts and points of reference that are easily understood or lead you intuitively to growth and answers.
Points of reference can include sources as diverse as The Bible, Tarot, Medicine Cards, I Ching, even regular playing cards if you have assigned specific properties or values to each of them.
My personal favorite has always been animal interactions. I rely primarily on Medicine Cards by Sams and Carson and Animal Speak by Ted Andrews. Whenever I have what appears to me to be a significant occurrence with an animal, I can read one or both books (even though I may have read the same animal numerous times) and gain new insight into a current situation.
Science tells us we are building new neuro pathways and reinforcing them when we meditate. So developing habits and even ceremonies can strengthen those new connections and reveal the many synchronicities that may go unnoticed.
Everyone has strengths and weaknesses so take the time to explore the possibilities. Don't be disappointed if you can't see auras (of people, trees, or anything else,) or haven't cracked remote viewing, or achieved all or any of your metaphysical wish list. Work and patience.

[alpha2theta]

I have a terrible habit of reading my own posts and wishing I had added one thing or another. So in that spirit:
The modalities are not the answer in and of themselves. They are tools. They are also reinforcements that bolster the belief system every time we have an awesome experience.
There are a lot of techniques (other tools) out there. Shakti Gawain is someone I recommend a lot. She is a great source for creative visualization practice. Jose Silva is probably one of the best resources for a multitude of tools and well worth reading.
Once you get a couple of good experiences under your belt, you'll start expecting them. That's when you start paying better attention. Best of luck.