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Originally Posted by PlatitudePluto
I can relate to what you said about people demanding too much of you. It's good you have that one person who cares. I don't think I have one of those. Anyway you must take time for yourself and if it makes you feel better, you must meditate. You must do what you can to stay on an even keel, because being off of one can make you feel like you're going crazy and everything is going wrong. I know we don't live in a world that allows that line of thinking, but it's true.
Saying no to people stinks but don't you think they'd be just as mad at you if you tried to help and messed things up because you weren't in the energy and state of mind to actually help? That's the power of saying no.
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Thank you so much.
I have learned so much in so little time, but the next step is practical application of this knowledge.
For instance, what if I were to say that God is punishing me for my hubris? What if the issue is all about relinquishing control to a 'higher power' and just letting go of it all? not trying to direct the course of my ship, but just weigh anchor and let the boat float on whatever currents and tides the universe provides, rather than always trying to steer my ship against them...fighting them...fighting destiny and fighting fate.
What if all these things kept happening to teach me a lesson? You'd think the universe would quit after it sees you are 'not getting it' but no, it emphasises it, blows it up out of all proportion and synchronicities start going from the sublime to the outright ridiculous.
Things are going to change for me in 2017 and I am not going to even try anymore - I am the original 'try hard, die hard'. I will either do things or not do them and if the universe has any different ideas, 'c'est la vie'. I mean, who am I to question the will of God - even if the answers are questionable within themselves.
I have been trying to hold on to my last piece of 'ego' and my last piece of 'me' thinking "if I do THIS, then THAT will happen" but it rarely works out that way, the way I only think it will - so there are two choices, don't do it, or don't expect anything from it.
In the past few weeks, all this stuff has died down, ever since I started thanking the universe for pulling my chain and the hubris just grows and grows. lol
In the end God/spirits were so fed up with my droll sarcasm combined with 'see if I give a flying f.....just get serious or pee off' and they haven't bothered me since.