The Shore

[Nowayout]

God as divine creator, a mind a will, an intent.
God as manifested flesh and blood, us, alive, hurting, dying.
God as spirit, all pervasive, webb and fabric if all through all times, bound by none.

This your work is also noted worthy.

[Realm Ki]

Oh brothers you arrive
At my door
That no one used to visit
We host a life
Of charm and vivid stories
And some of broken hearts
And toes.

My sisters they come later, they
Join the party late.
No fret, it's all for source
And solidity.

And we are home
And we are loved
And we are family

Yet I walk alone. There a shade of me
Missing, he keeps me company,
as a shadow, the shape of his absence
Is me.

I state this, as is.
I do not lament it,
Nor resist it, merely note it.

Despite all that is, all the wealth of
You. Or perhaps because of it?
The words of a love that never came
Brings him to me, the only way I know:
Not.

[Nowayout]

I state this, as is.
I do not lament it,
Nor resist it, merely note it.

I loved that bit, although it was all good.

[Realm Ki]

Flesh is very heavy
We are dense as we roam the earth.

My companion of many years,
Weightless yet all-encompassing,
However beyond-out-of-reach,
The shadow of his absence had
Agility.

Here I stand,
holding hands,
With a freight train.

I thought love would be lighter,
I must say.

[Unseeking Seeker]

***

Welcome back after your sojourn
Let love & light all ferality burn

***

[Nowayout]

I love the sound of a distant freight train

In the night.

A cool breeze through the window

Such delights.

[Realm Ki]

At dawn I greet you,
Friends of the past,
Foes of before,
That love made into allies.

Here in this window of time
I am lost
In a reality
That, though unreal,
Still feels fully foreign
To me.

And grief reaches me,
The absence of You,
And you,
And you,
All,
Familiars of the Past,
Present
And Prevailance.

A wave
As Presence and Absence collides,
Nibs at my heart all the way
through the veils,
A gasp, an ethereal shout-out.

Dear lost souls.
"Swimming in a..."

Can I be both...?
Can I live half here and half un-here?
Can I hold, with half a hand?
Can I love, with half a heart?

How does layers and layers of love work, when only some of the sheets can ever overlap at any given time?

I sense them,
All and none.
Another's travel has just begun.
Their morning is breathtaking, but not for soul abysses and dives into stars or
textures and voices of others worlds, where you all are.
The morning of the mortal, as glorious as it might possibly be, in it's perfect singularity,

That I can no longer see.

I'm hoping you
Will wave back at me.

[Realm Ki]

Aged
She stands
Magnificently ancient
With all our sisters in her hair

Welcome home sweet
Scented friends,
Enjoy the dance
Enjoy it, it is paradise
For now

And she, who knows, holds you,
All the way.

Learning from every starry-eyed petal
Joining her heart
This brief spring

Welcome, my dears, welcome
Home

[Realm Ki]

Allness and nothingness and oneness and everyness
Seems so unbearably easy now.

This intersection of material and All
Is a truly monstrous assignment,
A tangled dance with hair of rubber
And muddied feet as the tall soul reaches
And finds,
Floats
And follows home.
Again.
Walking, flying, being, breathing, touching, leaving, staying, still-ing.

Fully ****ing being here.
And Not.
At once... Oh give me a break!

Literally,
I mean is there really not
One single recess at this school?!, where is the Principal, I'd like to have a -

Word.

[Nowayout]

Life is like a freight train
Rumbling down the tracks

What's at the end of the tracks
Who are these people....

I am a passenger
Going down the tracks

I make some offers
I make many sacrifices
I make no false claims

We are on the train!

That's a good thing....

In my car.