Alcohol to numb

errr...can't find it anyways theres's this chart that shows the progression from social drinker to moderate, heavy, functional alcoholic, full blow, ect. It also listed they typical behavors for each stage like lying to people about how much you drink or hiding it. My point isn't where you are on the chart its just that your ON the chart and NO you are not a social drinker at least from what I've read. People that have situations like what you described with being on stage can NOT be an alcoholic but still exhibit the signs. But either way I stand by my original post. "IF" you are an alcoholic moderation 99% of the time wont' work. And you know that 1% that can do it in moderation? Well they're strong enough to tortue the hell out of themselves because they want more than 1 or 2 drinks but they keep it in control. Most in that group eventually quit all together since very few can live like that.