donnnn1

yeah, it's hard to get 'de-programmed' after having been conditioned in a belief system.

i believe most churches use fear to get you to 'obey'. that is not natural. one should be happy and stress free.

i would suggest you listen to your gut and realize you are a special and worthy creation and creator isn't going to burn you in hell for any infractions.

on your search perhaps you could also study reincarnation.