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I was focusing on myself, we both only wanted friendship because us both were broken hearted by our own exes in the past. Abuse and used by them and many other toxic friends. We wanted to find ourselves, we did. We found ourselves within each other. We involved ourselves in each others lives it just happened...I respect her life decisions as she respects mine but what i find troubleling in this connection is how can i have my own separate life if we keep going back to each other? How can I focus on myself when she is always there? I’m obsessed and codependent on her which was why i wanted space from her last year. I thought if we went our separate ways we’ll heal ourselves from past hurt. However, that isnt what God wants, God brought us together for a reason...God kept showing me signs to go back to her. And I followed them even though I questioned every single one...so what all i can do at this moment is save money to visit her overseas. To actually see her in real life. To be present, I need to see her I need to know who she is in person. My drive is to meet her and she is welcoming this even though her plate is full by being a young mother. She is letting me in for our sake of our friendship our love for each other. We are both scared...but I know deep down we will understand this once we finally meet. I hope for it to be soon. I’m so nervous...this is so new to me. I never thought I would find love this way but I think this is the reason why I am on this earth to be in love toshare the love. Be in union.
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