Tonight I surrendered to my feelings. I am in love with this beautiful girl and her beautiful soul. I let myself feel the love fully and it opened me up to the matter of the issue and when I was missing her I just wasn't reizong that she loves me. So when I connected to the love and feelings feelings inside me... it was like this other world opened up in my inner space. I opened up and felt the reality of her love and it is freaking AMAZING!
I was so scared to love her because I had been taught through other relationships that if you get feelings you lose. But it's not true. Love is the only way to find the truth. Love is the answer.
Also when I opened up to the love I feel it's like the loss was just irrelevant. It just disappeared.
I'm so grateful for my twin flame and my soul mate. I feel my twin flame cheering me on and both of their loving feelings.
I dont know what's next. Probably more self work more inner energy and mind work. I have a year of therapy starting in January. Just feels so crazy to know she actually loves me and she can reach me from over 1500 miles away! Thanks everyone for the support when it was rough. I may not have replied bimut I still heard you.. so ty.
Anyway off I go.. back into the inner empty and love space I love you all. Dont give up <3