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I think everything in one's life can be seen in a literal or symbolic sense as information about one's inner self. You seem to think this too, at least to some extent, or you wouldn't be asking about your situation.
I think you arranged this for yourself (on a higher level) to help you "exorcize your demons" so to speak. You still have heavy feelings that haven't been resolved from your experience of your brother's death. I see this as turning up the heat on yourself to force you to deal with your feelings so you can feel better and not carry this heaviness with you anymore.
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