Shivani...this is very interesting, what you say about the disassociation of emotions...and my heart goes out to you.
It seems to me many experience a similar thing with PTSD and similar situations of pervasive abuse and/or deep trauma. Have you heard about that? Many describe feeling unhinged mentally whilst "feeling blind", i.e., not feeling anything and essentially being blind, deaf, and mute emotionally -- suddenly and with no warning. Perhaps for months and even years.
Trying to re-learn how to navigate their humanity with a cracked heart vessel that often cannot even hold their emotions without disassociation and shutting itself down.
I feel that so much more needs to be done here, for so much of humanity.
Peace & blessings
7L
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Bound by conventions, people tend to reach for what is easy.
Here we must be unafraid of what is difficult.
For all living beings in nature must unfold in their particular way
and become themselves despite all opposition.
-- Rainer Maria Rilke