Honza this is my last incarnation of working on my spirituality in this plane. I am 65 years old and during this portion of my life I am disconnected with all of my family, most friends. In addition all social interactions have ceased because of my celiac disease. See, most social gatherings are centered around food. And these are foods I must stay far away from. With celiac disease the slightest cross-contamination (a hug for instance from someone who has been handling a gluten laden food) can send me to bed for a few days. A bad glutening will send me to the hospital. A severe glutening can kill me.
I consider this portion of my life to be a preparation for the separation that will occur when I die and move on.
Sad as it is, it is what it is. Hard to endure at times. I try not to think of it to deeply. I've learned to just accept it for what it is and look forward to when I can be whole again and happy (when I die).
If you hit rock bottom, start picking up rocks.
You know nothing, Jon Snow.
Ygritte from Game of Thrones.