who is judging you? who tells you that you are wrong is wrong
do what makes you happy ... whatever that is
always check with your feelings .. if it makes you happy .. if it makes you feel good .. then do it
and don't feel pressure to be in the light or in the darkness (i don't even believe in that thing) but ... you are not committed to either one ... sometimes you will be in the light sometimes you will be in the darkness and sometimes you will be in a grey area
we are all humans ... do whatever you want