I recommend reading the book "Stephen Lives" by Anne Puryear. Her son, Stephen, committed suicide back in the 70s. Years later, she started channeling him and wrote this book about it. This book has been healing for those who have contemplated suicide as well as those who lost loved ones to suicide. Nothing "bad" happens, you can still go to the light. He did, however, have to deal with the emotions of taking his own life. He felt this tremendous sadness and guilt in the afterlife and wished he wouldn't have done it. But he was not "punished" in any way.