blakegood88 please don't take it the wrong way. I think you might suffer from depression with the nostalgic, and then wanting a rebirth as in reliving but as your twinsis, secluded in time where you feel things were better. I could be wrong, of course, but if I'm right, you might need help with this, depression can happen to anyone anytime depending, it's human and there's way out of it, you can feel good again.