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A month ago today I watched my 64 year old dad take his last breathe after being diagnosed with late stage lung cancer last year in November. I have yet to cry, I have yet to feel anything, only the disbelief he has gone. Everyone says I am strong and cant believe how well I am dealing with it, I am not!
I lost my first wife 1o years ago, same thing! she was 30 and left me with our 2 kids, again did not cry but eventually I cracked, it is inevitable for all of us. Be it crying/illness/depression or some sort of breakdown it will happen. It might be in days or in years but it will happen. might be so long in the future you wont connect it.
I am waiting for the wave to take me out.
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