Originally Posted by kindheart

Btw here's a shot at the first interpretation that came to mind:
A new beginning with him would be hard and dating him again would come in the way of meeting the right person for me. As much getting back with him would ease my mind (I miss him when not talking), I really need to carefully consider my options here.

On the other hand, I could also see it meaning that I would be struggling to start fresh with him, because I'm still focusing on all that was and still could be wrong. But that my worries are actually more in my head as there may be real potential this time... he did learn some things and may make things right if I just calm down some and take what's right there in front of me (him).

I still don't see how things would be any different though. I don't know if I'm being too negative or hard on him. He really messed up on some serious stuff other than that though (repeatedly, which led me to last break up with him in July)