[SkyGodWarrior]

Hello :)

I have been on this path for a while and it seems that I have grown and learned a lot. There was a lot of karma that I had to work through as I am sure I have much left to do but at this point in my life I feel, happy and I am moving into greater understandings of this happiness. As I was monitoring my thoughts throughout the day I know that my negative thoughts all though quite minimized now are still quite negative. My guardians are always on point when my thoughts turn slightly negative or counter productive to remind me of the truth.

I know the BIG secret of the universe now with every being of my heart so it is easier to return to those states of love. There is even a change within my aura that shows this :) I was so surprised when I took an aura picture... I really liked it and for it to be that way after just getting off work too. Anyways...

Watching my thoughts I realize that my analytical, and cautious mind tends to easily visualize and say negative or self destructive things. I want my mind to go first to the positive and loving things first and to easily visualize and feel these things before anything else.

But what are happy things to think off?

lol it seems soo easy to be walking across the street and to think and imagine accidentally loosing foot and slipping and being destroyed by a car or truck...... It seems so easy to be randomly attack by a stranger or ghetto black person..... It seems soo easy to be shot randomly during the day..... lol...

The funny thing is that I am a big black person myself.... I know that these things are what media puts into our mind to control how we think of things.. but why is it so easily visualized? Could this be a indication of telepathic communication from a negative being trying to instill fear? I am not afraid of any of these things but at the same time my life experiences have shown me these things in the past....... When does wisdom and surrendering meet in this regard? ... nice meditation id say........

Maybe this is a good talk for the lower self because sometimes I am not aware of something mentally but my body or lowerself is reacting to the stimulus of the surrounding which then reaches my mind which then creates a ripple affect in the physical world........ I want to love and think of love....

When it comes down to it.... what are happy things?..... finding money in the streeet? Enjoying the surroundings as you go about your day....? or maybe to not think and just be, would be the best route?

Let me know what you think.... I want to make some more changes and redefine and solidify who I am and want to become.

I have all ready made the changes and realized who I am but now to display this physically...... lol Words.. are soo limiting...... smh..

Thank you for reading
:)