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Originally Posted by SleepyWarrior
So i'm a person who is pretty tuned in with their chakras, and my heart chakra has always been a problem. In general my chakras are strong, and then get weaker as they get closer to my heart chakra. Personally I think it's because a lot of this hippydippy bull**** thats around the heart chakra lore is quite frankly, bull****.
I'm trying to balance it out with the whole crystals, oils and meditation, and they, even if theyre just symbols, do have some weak effect, but it's not long lasting. I think this is because the psychological/thoughts side of me overrides it.
When it comes to the heart chakra and loving others, it all seems like hippy ****. Unconditional love is not healthy and it's certainly not good to easily trust. In my view this world is a harsh place, and as a sensitive person, I need to protect myself. So I feel it's good to be closed off and suspicious of people...why shouldnt I? I will give them my love and fondness when I discover theyre worthy of it. I refuse to invest myself in people who arent worth it, or are just anyone because it's a "spiritual" thing to do. I wont walk around in a bubble of love and beauty because thats not the world we live in... I feel the need to be more of a warrior.
And when it comes to love for myself, I don't know if this whole self love stuff is hippy **** too. I struggle to feel love for myself, if anything I'm apathetic towards myself. I take care of myself, but I don't love myself. I like my personality and how I look, but I don't love myself. Is that even possible? I do know, however, I feel a sense of anger and frustration at myself, and a feeling of rejection and spiritual loneliness, like I want to go home. I've been bullied and made to feel not good enough by the world because I'm just a kooky kind of person who has had mental health problems, so i've often felt unwanted by the world, defective and the opposite of what society wants, especially as a female.
And how can we even BEGIN to work with love when really, a great deal of us dont even know what love is and how to define it? It comes in many forms, then what is love?
Sorry this is a long post, but I want help and for someone to challenge my ideas.
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I'm totally with you on this one, but I shall let you in on a secret.
Certain people are the nurturing, caring, empathetic and sympathetic types who spout all that hippy-dippy 'love stuff' and other people are just
not. It is not in their nature to
be that way, no matter
what anybody else says. It is particularly typical of the INTJ personality type and for us to be any 'different' would be us not 'being ourselves' or being true to our very nature.
It's not that we necessarily hate others either because we cannot feel love or compassion, but for some reason it is non-existent
despite all of those 'hippy dippy' types saying "it is
there, but you're not looking hard enough" because all you can do is just laugh at them.
People who just cannot relate to themselves or others on an emotional level must find a way to open their heart chakra using
other methods, irrespective of the words or sentiment from others, because all that does, is harden our hearts
more.
We find beauty and love in mathematics, in sacred geometry, in the wonderment and amazement of natural phenomenon and in tales of animal loyalty and kindness...we see beyond the superficial 'hippy dippy' into the heart of all matter, the perfection and structure of the universe and the supreme consciousness or force which governs it all.
We see ourselves as complex biological beings, as atomic and chemical complexities giving rise to this human existence and vibrating in tune with cosmic algorithms as the macrocosm becomes the microcosm. We exist on an entirely different level of awareness from those who say; 'love yourself' or 'love others' as we cannot feel love from any 'personal' aspect whatsoever, we only feel unconditional love at an entirely
impersonal level, that isn't dependent upon material existence, as being 'self' or 'other' and yet, we are existentially isolated because others don't feel the same way we do...but our heart chakras become open due to this process and it leads to exactly the same place anyway.