There is a card in an oracle deck I have (Angels, Gods and Goddesses by Toni Carmine Salerno) that comes to mind. It is the Goddess of Psychic Protection card.
You can view the card image at the following link:
http://erinschliebs.com/goddess-of-psychic-protection/
The meaning below really speaks to your situation; you are in the driver's seat of your energy field - what you allow and don't.
Goddess of Psychic Protection: “What you believe, you create”
“You subconsciously believe that someone is energetically trying to cause negativity in your life.
You have drawn this card today to remind you that the life force, or energy, at the heart of every living thing is, in essence, love. Each individual soul forms part of a universal soul. All is energetically connected through the light of love. No one can psychically harm you, possess you or influence you, unless you believve they can. What you believe, you create! you do not need to protect yourself from others as much as you need to protect yourself from your own negative beliefs and fears.
To dissolve these beliefs and fears all you need to do, is focus on the light and love within and around you, and within and around every living thing. Imagine pure white light surrounding you each and every moment of your life. Know you are always protected and forever within God’s light.”
Try to ground yourself and not come from a place of fear but from a place of appreciation and what you want. Fear just feeds what you don't want and keeps you lop-sided. You are a powerful being Jack - you've got this! :)