starsaligned, Thanks for sharing your story.

But would you not say that the final attempt to actually be together and be in a relationship helped you reach closure? That was what I wanted all along. It doesn't sound like you were blaming him for the way that you felt during the 4 years. You were hurting, but you didn't blame him.

I'm somehow on the other side of the fence, being the friend who walked away and started dating first. Now he's blaming me for the way that he felt and I wasn't aware that he felt anything. I blamed him for not making a move on me back then. I just want to explain to him why I think none of us is to blame and to end this in peace.

It's going to be hard to be friends. It already is. Looking on the bright side, this will help me learn to really accept the things I cannot change.

I hope that you will find someone who is really right for you, someone who will only make you feel happy, who will appreciate you and you'll have that amazing connection of souls.