I hope he did feel something too, as you say. It certainly felt electric when we met. There was a soft energy to begin with that just grew in intensity. I am used to spontaneous spiritual experiences so I know the difference between me making it happen and it happening to and around me. This was definitely happening to and around me.
I too hope to discuss it with him some day and doubt I will rest until we do. I won't feel awkward, nervous yes. None of us want to be told 'I'm flattered but...' when actually what I would be trying to convey is probably the most difficult thing to explain.
I understand where you are at re marriage. It is a social construct. Who says we have to be married? Biologically aren't we meant to mate with as many as possible? Who knows. But I love my husband and I am happy to be married to him.
I just wish I could meet up with this man I feel this connection to ...I guess the awkwardness will come from me asking my husband if he minds...which sounds ridiculous written down but I would do this out of respect. I can't be doing with tiptoeing around and avoiding telling him. It was bad enough telling him I 'bumped into' him last week. He didn't sound in the least bit interested anyway.
I have a plan how I will bring the subject up...whether or not this guy then wants to meet is another thing entirely. I have an awkward habit of making things weird because I overthink everything.
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Originally Posted by Inika
10 years is such a long time. There must be bonding feels on his side toward you too. I hope you get to openly discuss things with him freely without akwardness.
I have thoughts about marriage. but only because mine didnt work and i vowed against it ever again.
Unless there is an ideal or perfect marriage in existence where neither spouse's soul is still unsatisfied and unconsciously 'looking' for its ultimate rest. then my thoughts remain.
i wonder if soul love, true love, unconditional love, agape love comes into it or if many are a coupling up for power, wealth, comfort and material security. And maybe, love will grow into it.. Or what was thought of as love has become 'comfortable old slippers' and love/romance and passion died off long ago.
Sometimes i think it's a 'role' that is a socially accepted thing to do.
'its been 5 years, you two ever gonna get married?'
hmm yeah, we may as well ***not like anyone else has showed up***, we are friends, i love him, trust him. may as well.
i dont get why to marry? I do not understand it's specific purpose apart from a role and a title.
Play it well and right and you'll be rewarded wife/mother/father/husband of all history.
logic tells us its the thing to do. it's human.
spirit says ***? ok lets roll with it. learn from it.
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