Hi One Light! I apologize because my answer has come so late now... the only thing that I can tell that is still on is the light flickering and lamps going off but it does not feel threatening, and we have check the electricity and there is nothing wrong or so they say. I have experience the entire light flickering and with the lamps in all my previous homes and I really thought everyone had this problem, ha ha. Just today it is sort of demonstrative. I did not touch the light to come of or on, I just went into a room that had the light on and then it just died out on its own the minute I walk in. Coincidence? Who knows.

I have not been woken again by the tickling of my feet and I feel lighter now about the ex who died and if it was him then I think his business here is done (at least with me).

I am always afraid to loose control and despite my curiosity of the subjects of astral traveling and everything else I think I have to take this in baby steps in order to silent the fright in me. In past life memories I remember scenes where I would try to fight off the attacker (who was then the usual enraged, jealous boyfriend or ex boyfriend as he later got to be), and I was angry and terrified at the same time and was left with the feeling of failure and feeling as if I was nothing worth and feeling really blue. So I think some of that fear has stayed with me. I think that might have infuriated him even more that even if he would get me in all kinds of humiliated positions I refused to apologize and I refuse to beg for mercy. Even the small report I was able to get hold of and translate by the witnesses of it said I had a strong voice that said "No!" to him at one point. Even the last hours of the death people heard my strong voice but it just gave them the feeling that my life wasn't really in danger so nobody call the cops until it was way too late. It is weird because I remember my past life self apologizing to her ex husband when they were married like all the time, but he would with her too, she would go "Oh, I'm sorry", and he go "no, I'm sorry" and they would laugh but I guess that was during a good time in their marriage.

I guess what I want to say is that even if I was tough (and terrified but trying to hide that) I wasn't physically strong enough. I don't know how it is in the astral plane, if it is will alone or if I am going to be just as psychically weak if I would get attacked, and I guess the fear is holding me back simply because I just don't know.

Thank you so for wanting to help me :)