imagine that you are like a multifaceted diamond.
it could be that those "good/desirable" things have truly come to pass,
but you've been unable to witness them due to being stuck viewing
from out the 'wrong' window.
i suspect that there are 'portions of your awareness' which are cognizant
of having those positive things transpire. perhaps you can look within
yourself, and discover some hidden truths awaiting discovery?
you are indeed strong to have endured repeated disappointments, and
yet maintained a faith that things are working out towards your favor.
