I didn't mean you are angry at me but perhaps angry at what I've said.

You appear angry at and frustrated by your parents, their behavior, their perceived attitude, their failure towards you; it's there in what you write and the way you write. I get all that but if you say you're not angry what adjective would you use to describe how you feel?

You are annoyed - can we agree that word? - that I said you weren't forced into your latest incarnation. I don't say such controversial things without being able to support and defend them but you are - of course - totally free to reject them. At that point it signals to me you don't want to go further with the conversation.