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Originally Posted by M.Tesla
My demon is that I feel utterly abandoned by God. I thought he was supposed to love me and make sure I'm okay, but it feels I'm lost to him. He doesn't even know I am here. It hurts so bad. I pray and I get nothing. I can listen to Christian music and see the perspectives of other people and how they feel and communicate and feel guided by God. I don't feel that way. Is it because I like the same sex? Is it a curse? I'm not sure, but I have little left to fight for or to fight with. Feel defeated. I want to know God is real.
Can someone help me?
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Hi M.Tesla
Your story is good stuff for a poem or a song, and I am starting to feel love coming your way.
When I feel abandoned by God, I listen with headphones on, repeatedly to one of my favorite songs up to a point when I am starting to feel love.
Some of the many songs i have experimented with are:
I wanna love U forever — Jessica Simpson
Three times a Lady — Lionel Richie
Jesus is love — Lionel Richie
Oceans [Where Feet May Fail] — Hillsong UNITED