Originally Posted by interim

You've listened too much garbage on internet by people that have no idea about spirituality...

I would describe it like this. Imagine you are a pig living in a mud with the other pigs. You do your "pig stuff", bathing in the mud, you have ups, and downs, like any other pig. There is overall balance in your life, since your follow the program to be a pig.

However, imagine this pig "awakens" and it realizes that there is much more to life then being a pig. Is this good or bad? Of course, it's both, and goes widely in both directions, based on your way of thinking. From one side is your pig life which you now see for what it is... and lets say it - it's not much... On the other side are infinite possibilities.

This is the real "awakening" - to see things for what they are, both ways. Not just imaginary "spiritual realm" of "unconditional love" and butterflies. Maybe such world exist, but now you are just a pig in the mud. Your "friends" are also just pigs that blissfully act like pigs. And if you have true awareness, you will notice all of that. People that talk only about "lightsider" stuff are not really awaken - they are only dreaming (like any other)...

Since the material world is very limited, and your own actions mean very little (as opposed to what the "dreamers" say), it's normal for life to become cumbersome. And no, if you aware, you can't really "change" it, since you are not about dreaming stuff up, but about perceiving the world for what it is. And it's a game with specific rules, either you play it or not... So basically, one constructive idea is to just continue investigating this life (of a pig). Yes, most of it is really quite boring, but due the fractal nature of existence, you will still see patterns that are common to the Universe as a whole. So it's not totally useless...

Life also gets quite boring, when there is nothing to pull you in any directions. The "lightsider" dreamers, are also pulled towards things to do, to struggle, fight. But a fully awaken person doesn't need to fight any more, and since life is about fighting, most of it dissolves without much more substance.

It's much more easier if you live in a place where there is spiritual tradition, so you can find more simple and minimalist life to meditate and observe, keep you mind in peace and in check. However, I live in the western world which nowadays is pure insanity... It's quite difficult to keep your distance and not get pulled too much into the game. Why do you want that? Well if you are aware of the game, you would know the answer - the game is fake, and its rules are not based on spirituality... Awaken person see what this world really is, and of course want to move to something better...