mary jane, I hope you arent discouraged that you were "dumped out of a dump truck". It's just not YET your time- and maybe God's Spirit informed them that after you were there a little bit- There's work for you to still do to contribute on this Earth and more work the Creator has to do in you yet as well (and this is the case for all of us still in these bodies yet) I think you were permitted to go through that taste of Heaven though, and it will always stay with you and encourage you for the future- that no matter what **** you will face in this life that it's only temporary :-)