[Colorado]

But, I make the best of it. I try my best, and my friends still think I exude happiness, but my friends still think I am not happy. I put on a happy face, and positivity....but those who truly know me...see underneath, even when I don't. You can never experience the after life, God, and your true home...and experience true happiness here, I guess. I can't imagine anything other than home, like being away as a kid, at a juvenile summer camp. When you are home you never feel unwanted, unloved, or inadequate in any way...your spirit is free. You can't baul out, you can't quit early, or will yourself to death. You just gotta do it. It's what keeps me going forward, I got a glimpse of the after life, our home life....and right now, there's a song on a movie in the living g room playing on a movie....it's because you loved me. How ironic, I'm in my bedroom and it's playing loud...God bless, the road is long...and if you knew��how great home was...you wouldn't want to be here. God knows what he/ she is doing by not letting you see everything right now...