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So, I been thinking about something. Something bad happened to me when I was young. I stopped going to the big family functions, shortly after it was too much for me.
I regret this now. I wish I was the woman I am now back then. I would have stood up to it.
I lost time with my grandma. I could never tell her why I never went. It would have caused to much damage. I remember the first year I never went I talked to her on December 26. She sounded so distant and tired. I cried after I got off the phone.Thinking I will go next year. She died before the next Christmas. I felt horrible ever since.
My question is this she has been gone for almost 14 years now. Would she have seen what happened to me. Would it all add up there on her end?