I will be very happy to inform you that we don't really live in a meaningless universe. I have directly experienced that we are "spiritual"

You actually experience this when you have dreams at night, sure we can science it down and normal it down and say "dreams are dreams, theyre not real, everyone has them" but they show us in a silent way that we can have experiences outside of our body that seem very real

You will never know for sure until you experience this for yourself, outside of a dream, and trust me Jim - You will experience it. There is NO denying that, it will come to every body in time -- NO MATTER WHAT :)

Just the fact that you are here shows you have never been quite satisfied with the answers you have been given, and given yourself. This alone shows you are ready to start the path towards discovering your self
I promise friend