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@davidsun Well I have to say, you have me pretty figured out haha. At present, I do believe the only way for me to think differently on this matter would be for a miracle (a "mommy angel") to happen. The thing is...I don't think I can just force myself to have faith. to believe in something just because I want it to be true. I've tried that, for years. I earnestly tried, while keeping an open mind.
Again, I'm seeking truth. I know how easy it is to fool the mind into believing what it wants. I do acknowledge that my current understanding may be wrong, but if that's the case, then believing in the opposite is just as likely to be wrong. It all depends on which belief you feed...only the current belief I'm feeding is based on experience, which is the closest to truth I can come to.
So it would seem that my fate is indeed sealed, as you put it. But is that really so? Am I just doomed to a depressed existence forever, short of a miracle happening? What kind of loving God would do that?
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