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I found myself, I suppose, like many other people around the world, at certain age, suddenly interested in occult, magic, esoterics. It was sudden influx of new ideas that rushed in to my life and changed me profoundly. During a period of few years I absorbed every information from the points of life, most likely to be considered by others as pure fiction, crazy or as it is most often considered a part of some conspiracy theories. It mattered little to me, what other though about it, because I did not have the time to waste on other people opinions. Not that they did not matter, it was simply so much to learn and know. Naturally all this terms like, indigo, chrystal, diamond, rainbow and bunch of other came my way too. The first one I was familiarized with was the term, starseed. Yes, it did describe me in every way, and there is no hiding the fact, it felt immensely good, to finally get some little thing to hold on to, as to why I have so many troubles operating in this world. Even though it was just a term like starseed, it meant something to me, because at that time, I was alone. There were not many people in my life back then I could talk about such things and the heaviness of it all made an even greater divide between me an others in my life which in turn doubled my loneliness.. So yes, it felt like piece of home, that simple word, starseed. Needless to say, that even before I found all this info, I always wondered why I get this strange feeling when I look at the starry sky. Yes stars are beautiful, but what I felt was more like a pain in the chest and a longing feeling for something out there. Then all the other terms came rolling in. And it seemed funny to me. Why the need for all this names? I did not like it and it felt stupid to me. Somewhere along the way it became some popular branding method, where one could just read something on the internet and could immediately recognize them-self in that description, without doing any real self discovering and was so perhaps mislead. I still remember the lines from the book I read, where it said: If you are reading this book, you are probably one of the 144.000 starseed on the Earth. It felt amazing, to be one of the few. And while it is true that you attract what you are, and it makes perfect sense that there is a lot more chance for someone that likes lets say nature, to read a book about the nature, it was all still presented too loosely and misleading. And yes, there was always more talk about, how as a different kind of being, whether indigo or starseed or rainbow or whatever you may have problems with that that and that and is hard for you to understand and do that that and that. This world is hard on every living being. And we all came from somewhere special, even if we were created on the Earth. Earth is special. What about new term? Earth children. That sounds amazing. A true new race of conscious guardians.
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