It helps me. I have genetically determined (I hope I wright it right) depression, I have tried to commit suicide 3 times in my life. So I know how it is not to like who you are and where you are. It helps me to think that I am happy to be what I am.
Everybody have problems, I feel mine is not the biggest, and I dont want to be lame one, who cant stand it, if others can stand 3 times more.
If it dont help you, sad. But I dont think that God will punish you for suicide.

Only I think there were something about those kind of themes in the forum rules...