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Originally Posted by meetjazz
I wonder, gives here any Guan Yin devotees? { Guan Yin is an East Asian goddess/bodhisattva associated with compassion, "Goddess of Mercy" in English.} I'm looking for some English speaking community about her, but hard to find in the West.
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I agree the important thing to connect with Kuan Yin is sincerity from the heart. I've not talked yet about my relationship with her as I was never sure how to bring it up. But here we are. Hopefully my story will help others to find their relationship with her or with another suitable teacher. I've had several spiritual connections but connection with her has been the most consistent and enduring.
Even though I have had people in my life all along I always felt completely alone like I did not belong here and wished I was not here. Relationships always felt awkward like I was hyper aware as just an observer and not a participant. Dispite that I took everything personally and blamed myself for any unhappiness in others and myself. Real or imagined. So most of the problem is that I had become used to being very intolerant of myself. She on the other hand was completely accepting as a stong and consistent connection to unconditional love.
The scenes described onward are from my inner eye. I have never seen an angel or master being materialized in the physical. I wish though... I'd like that more than anything. I always had strong intuition but during my childhood I was disconnected spiritually and had no awareness of conscious communications with higher beings. So I felt very alone spiritually though I know now they are always with us.
When I was in my 20s after moving out from my parents I lived alone and I was incredibly lonely. I was in therapy beginning my recovery from life-long severe depression. Moving out was a huge step for me. I thought about getting a cat because I had one while growing up that I loved and it seemed like another step to create a life for myself. But that seemed overwhelming so as a transition I decided to just start with a stuffed animal cat to get things going. I found a tan-colored lioness and named it Tara because that felt right. I found a spot on my car dashboard where it sat and watched over me as I drove to work. It helped me to feel less alone. Many years later I found out that Tara was the Tibetan name for Kuan Yin. So some unconscious part of me must have been guiding me as I reached for a connection.
In my early 30s I was doing the whole new age spirtual path. Reading everything I could get my hands on. I started trying some channelling mostly my higher self. Something shifted and the whole shebang opened up and I had all kinds of awakenings. There was a lot of fear still and it took a long time for me to calm down and trust what I sensed.
Not sure when I first became aware of my connection with Kuan Yin. It developed very slowly over the years. I would feel Kuan Yin's presence usually when I was receiving a healing session like Reiki. She was there when I got my 3rd degree Reiki training. A few years ago when I saw John of God I felt her presence very strongly. I only remember a little of what we talked about. She said she was my sister-mother and I felt like she was guiding me to help me to learn compassion for myself. As a foundation that would extend to others over time.
Recently a couple of months ago the connection was very strong. I kind of took it for granted and thought it was becoming a permanent feeling. I wondered if this was what it feels like to become a devotee. Since then the feeling has faded I can still feel the connection whenever I put my mind to it. So it is now maintained as a faith that the connection can never really be lost. The last thing she said to me was "I am with you always". Of course, makes perfect sense.
She shared two sayings with me that helped to understand her mission. The first is something like "Let's get to it". Meaning that she carries the intent to have a very active presence to maintain the connection of unconditional love in the world . The other saying was "As you are". Meaning that there is nothing you need to do and grace and compassion will greet you whereever you are. The nature of the divine is to respect our individual cirumstances and attachments as a starting point. The time is now and we start with what is. All are worthy of God's love. For some like myself it takes a long time to realize this and to find the ability to choose and accept it.
Although I was raised Christian I found connecting to Jesus intimidating. Kuan Yin helped me to build up a connection from a void. Now I feel like I've shifted into some kind of spiritual adolesence and more ready to work with Jesus. Everything I learned from her translates just fine into Christianity and I can relate to more people in that way. Another whom I appreciate is Saint Anthony. I have found a lot in common with his function to help with protection from loss and with Kuan Yin's role in helping us to reconnect our lost self with God. And now will be working with Jesus to help with connections with others. When in doubt it seems best to pray directly to God while at the same time being open to receiving love and guidance from the divine beings who can help.