Small events can affect us deeply as children, and in this case it left a mark which still remains all these years later.
But perhaps there is a lesson for you in acceptance, compassion and forgiveness. If your father was a tragic and mean-spirited person, then what might have happened to him when he was a child to make him turn out this way? Or perhaps as an adult he was frustrated and unhappy with his life. He is not to be condemned, he is to be pitied. And maybe now it is time for you to forgive and let go.
Peace
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