Hi again lamb. I looked, and I see you've been having struggles going back at least a couple of years.
A love lost and relationship shattered, it seems. Dark night of the soul. Etc.
"The issue at the core, when (one) hasn’t dealt with (their) own aloneness."
That wisdom is from JustBe, and I suggest you check her post history and read everything she's written. She talks about how we make the mistake of looking for the answer in someone else -- "wanting someone, waiting for someone" -- when we are the only ones who can complete us.
You are wanting you. You are waiting for you. When you understand this, that is when your real relationship-discovery journey starts.
That's all you truly need. Yes, it's lovely having someone in one's life, and that's a good thing too. But making someone else responsible for your happiness doesn't work; is unhealthy and leads to illness; and at its core is dysfunctional, meaning it is not an authentic and worthwhile relationship in the first place.
All the best lamb. Love yourself. Eckhart Tolle, YouTube site, start listening to his talks, that would be helpful as well.
