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Originally Posted by Inika
is it possible to be 'friends' with attraction there?
i wonder if guilt becomes conscious because deep in the conscious we are fully aaware of our desires.
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Exactly that. I want to be friends... or do I actually want more than that? Although this takes away the fact that I also don't want to actually have a romantic relationship with him. Do I desire him? When I am away from him, I can't deny that isn't part of it. When I am with him, it's something else entirely. Completely different energy to just 'fancying him'. I want to know him, inside and out, what makes him tick, what is his opinion on x, y, z. I want to reach out to him about how I have felt over the last 10 years and find out things from his perspective.
Which is why we would never be actual friends, I guess, never mind the married male/female thing.