Originally Posted by Nightshade

Because when someone is dead you can no longer talk with them, be with them or share an experience with them. Ofc that is sad.

The only reason I don't kill myself is because I do not want to transfer my suffering to my family: it would be selfish because I can imagine myself in their position - I would be extremely sad if some of my family members comitted suicide.
So I'll wait till my parents are dead and until my brother has a stable life - then I'll finish myself for sure since I'm incompatible with this place. To me, that is one of the few acceptable circumstances where it is "ok" to commit suicide: when the pain you transfer to your surroundings is minimal.