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It is a difficult situation. As of yet I'm not sure how it will develop for me in the future as we've only separated a few months back. I'm not over it yet, not completely, so it's too soon to tell how things will go with an alleged new man in my life. I am wondering about this though.
Then again, I have also loved the man before my TF very deeply. But so far, it's wait and see.
The peculiar thing however... the other day I did the TF Anchoring in the Higher Dimension meditation by Cassady Cayne as I felt I needed the energy work. And when it got to the throat chakra, I felt this amazing tingling there, it got deeply activated, and I connected again with my TF on throat chakra level. And it felt like a tremendous relief! I had not expected that, I am trying to let go of him, also energetically. Now I'm wondering if this is the best thing for me to do. Since I've been attempting to do this, I've gotten ill. Not the flue, but I got a problem with my sinuses, ear and in the end teeth. Turned out I had two teeth that needed root canal treatment. I'm still not recovered from it, had to go back to the dentist again yesterday and am now running on antibiotics, hoping it will heal now.
All that, plus the sensations on my throat chakra and reconnecting there with my TF, have me wondering whether I actually got this problem because I (tried to) severed the connection with him.
Not entirely sure. I've had a lot of stress over our breakup and stuff like that can be stored in our teeth and bones. You know, like energetically digging your teeth into something, refusing to let go. That kind of emotional, bitterness even, can get stored deep into your teeth & bones.
I remember the first time I cleansed my throat chakra, we had to do our jaws and teeth too, and all my teeth hurt like hell! There really is so much stuff stored in 'em.
In any case, I haven't got answers, I have to work it out as I go along.
I do keep getting mixed signals, even from readers/psychics. I have been told years ago that I would go on with the love of my life. From what I've gathered these people weren't talking about my TF. Last psychic told me this big love is yet to come and this (TF) was just a prelude.
But other readings tell me we aren't done yet, and will get back together.
I honestly haven't a clue, don't want to put my life on hold either. But dang, is it difficult to really move on!
In any case, for now my focus is on healing, recovering from these two root canals: this has been going on for some 7 weeks now, so I've been in pain for all that time. It wore me out, I'm exhausted.
Maybe I'm going about letting go the wrong way. That's what I'm thinking now. I beginning to think I have to energetically remain connected, let go of him in the physical though. Wonderful, pffff... Shut the door on getting back together yet keeping it open energetically. Is that even possible?
But I think I have to as when I shut him out as much as I could, I began to dream of him each and every night. And that caused me to clench my teeth real tight. After some 4 weeks of doing that every night, I got this tooth problem, and 2 root canals. Cost me a lot of energy and pain, and over E600.
Maybe a 'normal' life would've been easier, hahaha. But I trust the Universe. If we're with / have been with our TF, we have the strength to deal with it.
And yeah, that belief is all we got in the end, isn't it?
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