You are definitely walking on the best path, Keiko! Learn more, be optimistic, live the life you are meant to live with your child, and have faith - not blind faith, but realistic faith - that ultimately, our destinies are intended for good, and guided by a God who knows better than we do.
Please keep me in your prayers, as I will keep you in mine.
Jim
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If you don't go to church because you find it full of hypocrites: go to church, be sincere, and help outnumber the hypocrites.