A wife who loses a husband is called a widow. A husband who loses a wife is called a widower. A child who loses his parents is called an orphan. But...there is no word for a parent who loses a child, that's how awful the loss is! - Neugeboren 1976, 154

My teenage daughter has a terminal illness and I will lose her one day.I can only imagine what you have gone through at present.I will walk your shoes one day and it does scare me when I read how parents never move one with their lives,you are not the first I have read of.I hope you find some comfort on here and I think counselling maybe a good idea for you.Good luck hun xx