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I understand where you are comeing from!!
Before I begun my journer/quest I was faceing depression, was near rock bottom
One day after counciling my aunt seen a store it was called infinity spiritual senter. after we left i took an intrest to it, My aunt told me how she can see spirit, she taught me but my only goal was to see passed loved ones as of why I was grieveing.
many months had passed and i found my purpose of life, it was like i was a new me :p
i learnt alot about myself and religeons just a wide mix.
I went back to infinity for a healing And learnt I was clairvoyant.

So mate go for it meditation helps IMO, and reiki Would help[: