Windwhistle, what you feel is natural!

when you struggle against what occurs naturally, then you are being unnatural.

When you are hungry eat, when you are tired, lay down, when you feel sad, feel sad. Its the mental overlays
we put over what arises naturally that removes us from it, and makes it more difficult for us to accept. you are fine!
and feelings towards people you love is not the mark of one young in age who cannot recognize suffering.

you could never lose the Tao, you can only lose yourself.