That's it. Maybe it's egocentric of me to refer to that higher power as me. But I feel like we are all connected to it. And the word god still holds stigma with me.
But.
In which case. How do I get to it. To communicate.
Meditating is great I enjoy it now I used to be a chore now it's like taking a bath. But I get images and no sound Sometimes insight but it's takes great patience and detachment.

I don't want to be detached. Because I need to be told. Or shown where to go.
I know the purpose. The message. The message with find me. I have the means to sing and play it. And people listen I know I'm built like this for a reason.

But I need to know where to begin. India Tibet China where yaknow?.


My heart has fought a massive battle. And I've let Safina go. So I can do this. And I still writhe in that conflict.
I need his rreassurance.