It helps if you see that God. To me.
The word god. Means consciousness.
And we all are it. As is everything around us. Thus me and my higher self and God are all parts of the same machine.

It's for that reason. I know he knows what I know. But it's not clear to me. Which is why I need to ask. I can't express with the desperation I need to ask. But basically I'm willing to die to destabilise the current system and I need to know how to do that in the right way.
The change begins within me.
That's occurred. And it wasn't part of my plan. It's where I've been thrown. It's why I here desperately seeking anyone who thinks I'm sane.
If I tell anyone this stuff. I'd loose my job be medicated and locked up.