[RubberFlute]

I am not sure what am I even doing in here but hi!

My life has been pretty crazy but I have mostly been able to heal from things that were stopping me before. I always got help from somewere along the way. Somewhere that I am not sure I even believe in. I would like to find out if it was truly just my own subconcious or is there really this huge unseen world and intelligent life that isn't human or even physical in nature.

Some people in my family are just prone to experiencing these things I guess. One of them has also seen the same being I was seeing around at the time. I didn't tell her about these things at all. She accurately described it to me though.

I have always received help if I asked for it. I was helped in ways that I never expected but it was just what I needed. I have gotten straight answers and important lessons if I just dared to ask. There have also been darker exeriences. These dark beings. I felt like I was looking at some void of pure darkness. I can't really describe that horrifying experience well enough. I was shown how to make them go away though and I have been able to keep them far away from me for years.

I have also experimented with healing others but I always tend to get sick myself if I do that.

I don't really have anyone to talk to about these things. I am not supposed to believe in any if this or even think about these things I guess. I am trying to make a career in science and technology. I wouldn't have managed to get where I am now without all that help I got though. I would most likely be dead otherwise.