This is a good place to bring up those secrets we have been harboring for a long time. Here you will find (some) understanding.
Sounds like there was a divine intervention (the cut cord) because it simply was not your time to go. No matter if you felt differently at the time.
I commit suicide (successfully) in my last incarnation so this time I will "tough" it through no matter how messy it gets. I'm on 3rd base now. I'm 63 and have had a lot of learning experiences so far. And I'm not done yet. Still some things to learn (unfortunately
).
But yes, when it is my time go die, I know I will be going Home and I have no fear of leaving this body behind and moving on.