Dear darkangel91: Wow! Now you are the one inspiring me! (love it when we can reciprocate, eh?)
I really admire the sacrifice and commitment you are currently undertaking. I am most certain those doorways will open to you. You are following your intuition and spiritual knowing, and trusting what you know to be true inside you. That is incredible!
I look forward to hearing, if you care to share, what connections you've had during this ceremony you are committing to.