Earth&moonchild,

Just noticed your post there, sry for not replying sooner.

I have watched spiritscience on youtube along with a million other videos from a variety of sources. Studied and practised Buddhism, Taoism, Hinduism etc etc.

Now it's time to drop our attachment to spirituality also.

Spirituality in all forms is happiness seeking. You want to be happy. Great!
Why do you want to be happy?