Hi Daz, wishing you to be surrounded by loved ones at this time...
I’m listening to an Alan Watts lecture and I thought a lot of the discussion touches upon things I’m hearing through this thread. I am curious if you heard it before or had thoughts about it.
https://youtu.be/VBKsE-61vxg
I resonate with the idea of “dancing as if you don’t have an audience...”
Returning to childlike wonder and not overthinking the joy out of being... needing to know in order to proceed with any action. Instead, setting an intention inside to pursue (resonate with) joy and loving (with compassion) as my desired state of mind and heart... i can steer through with my feeling perceptions, understandings and intuition rather than rigidly remaining compliant to constraining thought-forms that stick yet feel “strongly untrue” inside... Disonance recognized upon reflection. Processing. Realizing when the me that is and does and observes... opens and closes my heart as I go about existing... day to day. And the how can I transform any of the non-loving and joyful states into reclaimed invaluable energy to synthesize and propel me once again to open to love and joy. And what happens... happens...
I consider my thoughtful/thinking state to be both nurturing and waste elimanating... as are my feeling heartfelt tears... it’s a full on cosmic recycling powerhouse and “maybe if i’m in my in the groove” 100% energy reclaiming depot... within me.
Not sure where I’ll end up or grow into but that is part of the anticipating excitement from feeling that anything can happen - especially if i can imagine it! For me... Life is an opportunity/challenge to be present/vulnerable/loving/sensing/joyful/curious/creative/harmonious. Consciousness... the gift of knowing the me (meta-me :-) that is sensing and universal consciousness, Recognizing the sensing gifts of others. All following birth, growth, stasis/stagnation (are they both the same?), decay, death, (recycle/return?)... their own processes of transformation in action (or not...).
Couldn’t our embodied selves be but mere unique and specialized “cells” of a larger whole/soul/being/? - aware of only what we our “cell” selves come to perceive around us and feel connected to? Just as blood and skin regenerates and renews time and again within... keeping the entire body going for some time so do we all... there are many... the family lives on...
Like one tree and a forest... an onwards... outwards... through time and dimensions. Doing our thing. One way or another...
Expressing a myriad of possibilities... the wonder of it all.
Through trial and error, ebbing and flowing within various states of obscuring/exposing/developing love and joy with whereever i find myself.., as its the highest most desirable energetic state i’ve discovered to date where i can feel the peaceful hum of the universe within and thrive and become pregnant with creation and possibility. From my perspective.
I may not know why i thrive, buzzing with lifeforce energy, from a place of love and joy... like a plant may not know why it seeks the caress of sunlight... it’s definitely not because I’m told to... or becuase its proper form in the eyes of others or myself... and it’s not becuase i’ve thought my way there... more it feels true and resonant time and again and keeps me going moment to moment without draining effort... as part of it all - ever changing. An expression of existence... part of some forest...experiencing various conditions and juxtapositions.
Maybe, flowing with the urge towards love and joy is the most efficient, creative, and sustainable way to create life force energy as that is what we all are (need to exist) in some form or another. While attempts to control and harness energy without mutual resonance and energy creation eventually go bunk, collapsing in on itself to be reformed... renewed, due to imbalanced rigidity and long term unsustainability.
Is this what’s simplistically under it all, the point of the doer, knower, observer... to create and sustain universal energy with whatever conditionings, inklings, knowhow, and interconnectivity we can bring to the table of each of our individual conscious awareness and expression?
Peace,
TW